Public was busy today. My legs always seem to let me down.. watching videos and thinking about skating motivates me, but when I "strap on" my skates, my utter exhaustion and my degenerating knee and hip joints tell me otherwise.
Friends tell me ... "you look great". I am never fishing for compliments. Trust me I am my biggest critic and my coach says things like "they were all small mistakes" "you are skating strong" .. but from my perspective it sucks!
There are many things I will never be:
I will never be 5'8" tall and lean.
I will never have a double jump.
I will never have enough energy to provide me the kind of confidence I wish I felt while skating.
I will never not envy someone else's skating.
If only I could live by a better mantra:
I am a 55 year old figure skater. ('nuff said)
Anyway ... Mondays are usually reserved for Moves, but I need to stay focused on my test in just shy of a month. My Camel spin disappeared today. I was loving my slow 4 rotations and now I would give my eye teeth for 4 slow rotations. Tomorrow maybe.